Like many girls,
I was born with a grenade pin in my hand
I spend the nights listening
to the silent countdown
I’m a rootless and fragile thing
in a hurry to live
before I’m torn apart by my delusions
bleed out everything
I’ve ever owned
On these cloven feet
I hunt for holier hearts
running from boredom
and loving for sport
there’s no hand I won’t bite
no man I won’t let down
don’t wait for me
give me a name,
be gone sooner
another face in my brick wall
1 was for revenge. Flick of tongue deeper than your promises
2 nothing but a fountain of blood
3 was the first time I googled ”pregnant, symptoms”
4 left a bar of chocolate and a note saying ”I’m sorry” in my bag
5 wasn’t at all, but I didn’t say no (fair game)
6 was for the words ”this might make me love you”
7 is what I intend to say to bring you back
I had sex with Mr Sharp.
His hands have the funniest smell.
Like a basement hiding a starved child.
Mr Sharp knows I tried.
Believes each lie, demands more.
Mr Sharp lurks in my bathroom cabinet
waiting for my lust to kick in.
I hear his voice though it’s distant,
Mr Sharp loves me still.
Tears through poetry, sleep and wake.
Mr Sharp will let me go in time.
when I am older and more indifferent.
Until then we’ll keep dying for each other.
Until then we’ll fight this world.
to attach myself
to temporary solutions.
I wish to become
art, Christ, pain manual
I wish for you to walk these steps
I need you to resent me
and once I’m gone I pray
you inherit this rust
hammer and plank
and the need to breathe.
Store policy: You break it you buy it
Programming language: What you see is what you get
Terms of return: Trust must be damaged
Warranty: Guaranteed to outlast you
Disclaimer: This product is not a toy. Exercise caution.
are rare or non-existent
we exist at a very special point of time
a breath unreleased
intelligent life destroys others
intelligent life destroys itself
we’re already dead
communication is dangerous
everyone is transmitting,
no one is receiving
we haven’t listened properly
we haven’t listened for long enough
earth is deliberately not contacted
is there really no one
Is this cage
that you can leave
enough to hold you back?
your carnivorous paradise
shrinks around me
like a snare
kill this love or
let it consume you.